Coping with losing….
I had one goal: to win my pro card. I did not make that goal and yet, this was the best contest I’ve ever had.
Video below goes into detail on events themselves.
I’m not the calmest person to walk this earth and when I compete, my overly aggressive, competitive, personality comes out. I can be hard to be around and my energy can be overwhelming. With a winning mentality, losing can be tough. This has pros and cons, it makes me a great athlete but takes away from other areas of my life.
I’ve gotten “post contest blues” when I fail to reach my goals. Any athlete can relate. This tends to lead to a spiral of emotions including: questioning your self-worth, anxiety, uneasiness, etc. Yes, this can fuel the fire and your desire to succeed even more in the future, but it comes with a cost.
There’s been times in my life where I have been so obsessed with training that I have neglected other areas of my life. Don’t get me wrong, training won’t always be fun but if you’re not doing something you love, then why bother?
My biggest heartbreak of this contest was when I placed low on my favorite event (H-stone carry). This is an event that pushes you just as much mentally as it does physically. It’s going to hurt no matter what but if you can withstand the pain and talk yourself through it, you will be successful.
Mental toughness is what I pride myself in. My hand slipped and I dropped it, before I was even tired. As I explain in my video, it doesn’t matter what you do in training, it comes down to contest day. I was disappointed, but not devastated.
I texted my coach the news that even if I won the next event, I wouldn’t win because of how low my placing was on that one event. I told him, I wasn’t that sad. I told my mom too. She wanted to know if I was crying. I wasn’t, and didn’t. I was surprisingly calm this entire contest. I really enjoyed walking around in between events and introducing myself to other athletes.
Ever since my injury, I’ve matured as an athlete and person in many ways. Instead of telling myself, “I’m a failure” when I don’t do what I set out to do, or place where I want, I take it in stride.
I feel lucky to compete and push my body outside of its comfort zone. There are many people that do not have the privilege of health. Not being able to walk for a few days will do that to you. I’ve said this before, but I’ll say it again…getting injured was my main facilitator for personal growth.
Mental scars left by an injury often corrupt your confidence and can lead to a plateau. The constant fear of re-injury can keep you from regaining back your confidence. I made sure this didn’t happen. I have mastered my mental game. I have devised a system on keeping myself in check and always being motivated to be the best athlete (and person) I can be. Being a role model in this sport for other people is just as important to me as winning is.
Taking a few weeks off of with no structured program then getting ready for the Arnold in March!
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Well another nationals in the books! Didn't finish how I wanted but this was the first contest that I had an entirely different perspective and just enjoyed being there. After a serious injury 5 months ago I worried I wouldn't ever be a competitor top strongwoman again. Then 8 weeks ago when I found out I had stress fracture I thought it would be stupid to compete. The woman next to me (all 117lbs of her) @gmcravedi82 me that if we didn't go (she has some injuries too) we would regret it. I am so glad I went. I met AMAZING athletes this week and really took the time to talk to a lot of people and not be in my own world. I'm not a calm person, and I am proud of myself for how I have matured as an athlete and stayed upbeat and focused the entire weekend. Next up… Arnold in March and maybe some fun local contests. Best believe I'm coming back to nats for VEGAS next years. Lots of people to thank but most importantly @titanbarbell you are not only my coach but a true role model. You have influenced me in so many ways aside from being an athlete. Seeing you have a family, a successful business, and just be an all around good person has steered me in the right direction. Mom @k_dimez_ are like 10 people in one and always in my corner. Gym family– You're more than friends, you make this sport a way of life. We always are pushing each other and there for each other and this weekend reiterated that. @dmdonof1 @chickenlegsnomore @strongmanrichd @odestefani @_queen_beast @redbeardlifts @pockets75 @bigdoggry Thanks to @acumobility getting my body healthy. @beastmetals for the pinkest strongman equipment and getting me good at overhead, @hernetix_usa constantly testing me with new products. @playagainnow supplements that actually work. @startingstrongman for recognizing me when I was just a tiny human! ☺️ @strongmancorporation for growing this sport and doing amazing things for the women's class, @floelite and @prostrongman for the commentary and live streaming. Lastly– all my friends that reach out and are supportive because they know how much this means to me! Thank you. #nasnationals2016 #stillprocardchasing #arnold17 #smallhuman #largehuman